Keep Your Eye on the Fly

Part of my Reboot2020 process is finding balance. When I caught a pic of this frog outside my front window I laughed because on one hand he seems to be giving a peace sign but on the other hand he’s giving me the finger…it’s about balance. No one lives in total bliss all the time, in fact when I start down a new path I encounter so much clarity that it can really piss me off and become unsettling. I try not to be discouraged by the negative emotions that I have to deal with as I am working out or walking a trail. I set off thinking this will be a nice stroll today, just gonna take it easy for a basic Sunday walk. Then I find myself running the steps and running the hill, forcing more from myself and dealing with all the stuff I have been pushing down. It’s like the mix of the heat which is around 90 degrees today and the workout itself help to unpack the emotional bullshit and bring it to the surface so I can let it go. But, to be clear, letting it go does not mean I am not learning from it, or making sure it doesn’t happen again. I bring it to the forefront, sweat through it and learn from it. Life is a game of lessons in my opinion and unless you want to suffer through the same bullshit over and over, it’s best to pay attention and deal with your shit. I am so guilty of making the same mistakes over and over and that is why I get it. I am learning to nip certain things in the bud, but a lot of times it takes me suffering through a few storms and letting it flood my soul before I learn to build a structure, seal things up and prepare for that weather better next time.

I am on Day 4 of the Keto diet and Day 2 of tracking my steps. I mentioned in the last post that the whole point of this series of Reboot2020 is to stay accountable even if I am only answering to a computer and a unread blog. It doesn’t matter. I got at least one person to sign up for a daily challenge on the Fitbit app so I am tracking my steps again, and I am sticking to the diet. I made it through the holiday weekend without alcohol and I have managed to stay on track with eating. By the pee strip tests I seem to be in ketosis which happened by Day 3. This is when I start to slip usually because I lose that beginning gusto I guess, and that is why I led with the frog who definitely has his eye on the fly!

My goal is the same as it was 4 days ago and I am making progress. I know that my success relies heavily on making my own food so that I have snacks to grab and avoid the pitfalls of snacking or eating mindlessly. I want to enjoy my food.

One major positive aspect of Keto and low carb diets is the fact that you will not be hungry. If you are following the plan right and taking in enough fat then you will start to feel satisfied for longer periods of time and you will feel full from a meal made in line with the diet. It doesn’t have to be complicated and the easier the dishes you make the more likely you are to make them again.

Tip: When making things with almond flour, try making only one serving so that there is no temptation to overeat.

Food Ideas

Buffalo Chicken dip in crockpot, Cucumber slices topped with low or no carb dips, hardboiled eggs, almonds, pistachios, celery sticks with peanut butter or some nut butter, iced herbal tea with a splash of sugarfree vanilla creamer, sugarfree jello with whipped cream

Sort of fancy for 4th of July. I topped cucumbers with jalapeño artichoke dip (premade from Aldi), sprouts, a 1\4 of grape tomato, salt and pepper. It was fresh and filling 🙂 I also used the premade spinach and artichoke dip for some of them. I only made this many and put away the dips after making my plate so I would avoid eating more. (know yourself)

Keto Reboot

I fell off the Keto wagon hard during the shutdown.

I’m not going to lie, I fell off the Keto wagon hard during the shutdown. I let the stress and anxiety get the best of me and I surrendered to the call of the Doritos, pizza, candy, ice cream, wine, margaritas and so on and on until I couldn’t button my jeans. Working from home meant working in yoga pants and being steps away from the kitchen snacks. I don’t feel good about what happened but I also won’t beat myself up about it anymore. I have seen the results before and I will see them again. I am holding myself accountable by starting the blog and checking in however many times it takes.

Today is day 1, I started with butter, coffee, MCT oil, cinnamon and stevia

Going strong at 8:45 am at work and the office email sends an alert “FOOOOD…there’s breakfast in the breakroom” I will resist the beautiful bounty of bagels and treats. I will just look and see what’s there but I won’t have any…maybe there’s bacon.

No bacon, I am back at my desk just having a cheese stick and sipping on green tea.

hard boiled egg (2)

Lunch-Salad (lettuce, cheese, tomatoes, cucumbers, sprouts, ranch), turkey burger with gouda cheese, zero calorie raspberry green tea, sugar free jello cup

Survived snack attack around 3 and refused to go to the vending machine where I cannot be trusted this early in the game.

I’m home from work now. I stopped at Chipotle for a keto safe salad and a coke zero. I had one piece of 85% cacao chocolate and that’s it. I set the timer on my phone for 16 hours and that’s how long I will fast, minus water or herbal tea. I think that fasting helps trigger ketosis on top of the higher fat content that I had today. The salad had cheese, sour cream and guacamole. (there is a lot of debate on the dairy factor in ketosis but I have always had some dairy but not a ton). I don’t eat a lot of yogurt in the beginning but once I am to my goal weight then yogurt is something that I have if it’s full fat and low sugar.

Anyways, I am home and I am setting myself up for not eating the rest of the day on purpose. I tried to come up with a plan on my way home for how I would tackle the first night with no carbs and no sugar. Stopping for a large salad and having my dinner early is the best plan for me because I know I can eat breakfast early tomorrow after the 16 hours. That means that I can eat breakfast around 9:04 which is perfect for a day when I don’t have to get up and I don’t have to work tomorrow.

The point of writing this blog to myself and anyone who happens by it in the vast world of online blogs and diet journals is really just for accountability. If I don’t feel accountable for something, it’s way too easy to push my goals to the next day, the next week or even the next month. I need this goal to take the forefront in my life because it is making me unhappy everyday and several times a day I feel disappointed and defeated by my lack of commitment or discipline or whatever you want to call it,..willpower if you will,..and I will.

That’s it! I just need a place to check in and remind myself of who I am and what is most important to me. Right now the most important thing to me is to regain my self-confidence, clean up my eating, and lose weight.

When I lose the weight I am going to feel much happier when I get dressed in the morning. If you think about it that’s extremely key to your day. No matter how great I feel mentally when I try and pull on a pair of jeans and they won’t zip, or my top is pulled too tight and my sides are spilling over my waistline, I don’t feel good. Is the way I look the most important thing in a world so devastated by a pandemic and widespread protest and hate right now? It’s the most important thing to me, because my body is at war and I can’t even solve the world that is my own little universe inside a giant universe with all these other systems and worlds floating around me trying not to collide. How can anyone think they can solve the problems of the world if they can’t solve the problems in their body, in their minds, in their homes?

The point is that losing weight is not just about how I look, it’s about how I feel and it’s about what is healthy and right. You solve what is in front of you so that you can be of service to those around you.

From what I have read about success there are two things that seem to be true. One is that you need a clear definition of what your goal is and it needs to be realistic. I want to lose 20 pounds. You need to imagine what it will be like when you achieve that goal and really embrace the reality of the way it will feel, the way my clothes will fit, the higher energy level I will feel, and even the way I will look in my bathing suit. The second thing is the steps in which you will take to get that goal. I am going to use the keto diet plan, walk at least 10,000 steps a day using Fitbit (waiting for new charger in mail) to track and avoid alcohol.

Quick almond flour crust with egg, cheese, baking powder, cream cheese, topped with cheese, basil and tomato. Just microwave the dough ingredients first then throw on parchment paper for best results, bake the crust at 375 or hotter for less than 10 minutes, pull out, flip it over and then top..melt your toppings.
Super easy almond flour biscuits: In glass mixing cup or bowl add an egg, dash of baking powder, “Everything but the Bagel” seasoning and a little almond flour -less than than 1/4 cup (a splash of heavy cream if you have on hand), and microwave for 1-1:30 , slice. Fry some eggs or make an egg sandwich.